do I want to die? or do I just think that it's bad right now and I'm panicking? is this legit? or am I just another whiny emo punk ass kid? I don't want to be sad. no one likes the sad me. I don't want it to happen again, I really don't.. sometimes I just get so caught up in the small shit that I get messed up. I don't want to be sad.
I don't know. I just feel helpless and guilty and horrible I guess
horrible because it all honesty I'm not helpless
guilty that I try and excuse my behavior with "helplessness."