is this all my own doing? why do I miss her? I didn't even know her. I won't ever know her. do I want to be this way? is the reason why this happens my fault? can I stop it? sometimes I think I just want to be that way. I want it go back to how it was. I want the old me back. no one else does. why not? it's not what they want. but do I really want it? I'm not sure.

wow I just reread something I don't think I've come across for a very long time. if I'm right about who wrote it.. then I don't know what this means but i definitely felt my heart jump. I think I miss him. maybe it's just the time. I'm just tired. no reason to mention/think about it. he def. doesn't miss me. he has someone new.